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para ser honesto me siento deprimido.  to be honest i feel depressed. Siento que no tengo nada más en absoluto.-i feel like i have nothing else at all. mi padre murió hace poco -my dad just recently died. Me siento como si fuera mi culpa. i just feel like it's my fault.. but i will be okay..

Idk..

 Currently I honestly don't know what is wrong with me. I'm just done right now. There's just so much going on and I don't know what to do. Around people I act like 'i don't care' and that there is nothing going on. But truly..I feel..like i'm done I guess. I can't really explain it but when people try to seek attention and be fake. It is really annoying and i'm to the point where it doesn't matter no more..

Blue

Life is hard, I know. All your lights are red, but i'm green to go. Used to see you high. Now you're only low. All your lights are red but i'm green to go. 2x I want you, to colour me blue, anything it take to make you stay. Only seeing myself when i'm looking up at you 2x. I can't say..no. Though the lights are on, there's nobody home. I swore i'd never lose control. Then I fell in love with a heart that's so slow. I want you, to colour me blue. Anything it takes to make you stay. Only seeing myself when i'm looking up at you.. I know your seeing black and white, but ill paint you clear blue skies. Without you i'm color blind, its raining everym time I open my eyes, my eyes. Etc..

Songs

Umm..i write my own songs sometimes. Depends on my mood. To be honest, I was pretty messed up in 4th grade, and in 5th grade. I won 1st place in the Talent Show from singing my own Mash-Up. I wrote my own song current  its called Blue..For my next blog post,  I'm gonna write the lyrics for it.

Sorry

Sorry I haven't been posting. I just got out of the hospital, so yeah. So far, a lot of people just don't care i guess. But i'm okay, after this i'm gonna post about just different songs. Currently..my favorite song is Cheap Thrills by Sia. To be honest a lot of people think i'm depressed, but idk. The Friday before spring break I was in Mr. Jeters office crying. Anyways this is all i could rite right now, so bye.